What happened?

How did I end up here. You know looking over all of the blogs I used to read, and realizing how many of you are gone. Makes me sad. Remembering that I used to have a dream that I followed made me sad too. I don't know if I can get it back. I don't know if I can even leave my house anymore. I fell of the wagon, then I ate the wagon, then I ate the wheels.
I'm a failure and I know that now...WTF happened to me?