Menu

So the rules are as follows.
No added salt.
If you must snack it has to be a fruit or negative cal food.
Also I would stick to water as a drink unless said otherwise.

Days 1-7

Breakfast:1/2 grapefruit, 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1 one ounce slice of cheese. No cal drink
Lunch: 1 scoop salmon( 2 ounces canned in water) tons of neg cal veggies, 5 whole wheat crackers. No cal drink
Dinner: Baked chicken( 3 ounces cooked) 1 cup cauliflower 1/2 cup beets, 1 apple. No cal drink

Breakfast:1/2 banana 1 ounce high fiber cereal, 8 ounces skim or low fat milk no cal drink
Lunch: 4 ounces low fat cottage cheese, neg cal veggies, 1 slice whole wheat bread
Dinner: 3 ounces poached fish 1 cup broccoli, 1/2 carrots 1/2 grapefruit no cal drink

Breakfast: 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1 tablespoon peanut butter, 1 apple no cal drink
Lunch: 2 ounces tuna with lemon juice, neg cal veggies, 5 whole wheat crackers, no cal drink
Dinner: 3 ounces cooked beefsteak or hamburger patty, 1 cup asparagus, one ounce of cheese, 1 orange, 1 cup salad, no cal drink

Breakfast: 1/2 banana, 1 ounce high fiber cereal, 8 ounces skim or low fat milk, no cal drink
Lunch: 2 ounces tuna, 1 teaspoon mayonnaise, neg cal veggies, two slices whole wheat bread, 1/2 grapefruit no cal drink
Dinner: 3 ounces baked chicken, 1 ounce cheese, 1 cup salad, 1 apple no cal drink

Breakfast: 1 cup berries, 4 ounces low fat cottage cheese, 5 whole wheat crackers no cal drink
Lunch: 2 ounces tuna with lemon juice, 2 slices whole wheat bread, 1 teaspoon mayonnaise or low cal salad dressing, 1/2 grapefruit no cal drink
Dinner: 3 ounces beefsteak of hamburger patty 1/2 cup green beans and 1 cup broccoli, 1 ounce of cheese, i apple no cal drink

Breakfast: 1/2 cantaloupe, 1 ounce cheese, 1 slice whole wheat bread no cal drink
Lunch: 1 hard boiled egg, neg cal veggies, 2 slices whole wheat bread, 1 teaspoon mayonnaise or low cal salad dressing, 1/2 grapefruit no cal drink
Dinner: poached of baked fish 3 ounces, 1 cup asparagus, 1/2 cup green peas, 1 apple no cal drink.

Breakfast: 1/2 banana, 1 ounce high fiber cereal, 8 ounces skim or low fat milk, no cal drink
Lunch : 1 cup berries, 4 ounces low fat cottage cheese, 2 slices whole wheat bread no cal drink
Dinner: 3 ounces baked chicken, 1 cup cauliflower, 1/2 carrots, 1 apple no cal drink

I ended up eating a lot of chicken and fish since I don't eat red meat and I also went through the menus for the certain cal intakes and switched out meals. I am also eat rice chex and plain soy milk since I can't stomach real milk, and sometimes raisin bran for the fiber. I can honestly say that if you stay within these parameters you will lose a couple of pounds in the first few days. Its kind of a miracle. Don't go over the intake, though I've gone under without much problems. There are some alternate menus as well, if you would like them let me know. As far as the salt thing...the book says use a lot of spices but not salt ...because of water retention. NO oils....fats. AKA butter. I know none of you have probably had butter in a while and now is not the time to start.
So that's one week.

And I am running on one hour of sleep. Sooo...I'm going to pass out for the night.
I will read blogs when I get up.

Renaissance

I want to say thank you to Prozzy and PrettyWreck for the comments of late.
PrettyWreck I'm taking what you said about love and having it framed. That's exactly it. Everything all jumbled in my head and you made sense of it. Thanks
To both: Yeah...he lives in Vancouver....but one day maybe.

So ....last night was a long one. I was up from about 5pm till 11 in the morning. Talking to the boy of the internet. He is in love with me. He told me so. He thought...that I didn't like him in that way. He's been dying to tell me since September.
Now...our history is this. We started talking last year around August. Around late Nov he disappeared. 8 months later I get an email. We began as if it were just a few days between us instead of months. We've always had a lot in common, and we clicked so fast and easily as friends it was amazing. But I haven't started feeling deeply about him until recently because....truthfully how do you feel for someone you've never met.
But last night all of it came out and things were settled.

By the end of the night I will post for you the menu for the first week since Monday is close at hand.
Thank you very much for reading. Thank you very much for commenting.

Compulsory

I wonder sometimes if I were asked to marry someone....what would I say.
The whole scenario fills me with a fear and anxiety. I would say no most likely the first time.

I've come to realize that loving people or being close to people is a very scary thing to me. Maybe because I'm afraid of ..loosing myself. Truthfully that's what I want to do. I want to lean into someone and take their strength and not have to worry about holding up my shield to the rest of the world.

But back to losing weight...lol
I didn't binge...not really...but I did eat a pastry and I couldn't leave that inside my body. Throwing up broccoli is very disconcerting by the way. So green.
I'll see the weight change by tomorrow morning
It never fails that every month right before the call of nature comes, I get upset and disoriented. Depressed irritated. I go inside myself and try to deal with these feelings. I deal with it a week before and after. Then I get two weeks of freedom. And just once I'd like to have a whole month to be happy.
Don't I have enough to deal with mentally...without the chemical imbalances?
Silly question to ask I'm sure.

I think its soon time for bed.

Loser

I am losing.
Finally.
But When I slip up, it takes me back to the number I dread to see. 197
What I really want to do today is fast.

So I've been talking more to the internetz boy, and of course like a cotton-headed ninny muggins I find myself thinking about him, and smiling like an idiot.
What is is about being a girl that makes us so silly around dudes? Or even ladies if that's your thing. I don't know what the future is for me, if he'll be in it or not. I hope that he'll find someone else....
So I can be alone.

How horrid does that sound?

I don't want to be put on again. And for once I'd like to have a relationship that doesn't exist in cyber space.

The diet I'm on is called the rotation diet. Its a little bit amazing. Besides my slip up last night I had been at 192-3, this morning  I'm at 195. Hoping to hit 190 by the end of this week...two days. I haven't been out running but I know with the heaviness of what I ate last night I have to, or be damned.
Anyway....this diet suits me because you never go over 1200 cals a day in three weeks. 600 for three days 900 the last four for the first week, 1200 for the second, and then 600/900 again. Its kind of bad ass, and everything is measured which I love.
So maybe I'll post the first week's menu for you. I changed a few things because I don't eat read meat.

So anyway. Happy Friday ladies. And Lads if there are any.

Every pound is a pound I've slaved for

It gets tedious, watching the scale go up and down, up and down, over three pounds. I'm so sick of watching it, of watching me, of watching food.
I want too stop eating because that's when I loose the most. But since the house thinks the cleanse is the problem, there's no chance of me getting back to that.

I feel trapped and I'm having strange dreams. I want a break. A break would be so very nice. A time when I could walk around in pj's and not feel like I'm breaking laws. A time when I don't have to see or talk to anyone.

I'm a horrible recluse.

In Hell there are only Plateaus

Thankfully I seem to have broken mine. Tomorrow will really tell the tale eh?

Its only Tuesday....but I spent most of it in bed. I just don't care about anything. I don't want to eat, but I have to on this diet. Only 600 cals but I just don't care.

Going to start a Kung Fu class. Exciting.

Oh man.....

What's up with you?