Loving myself, the only way I know how.

Lost: 20lbs
gained:10

It's a battle that I can win and I won't let this go on.
I'm finally back at my apt, away from family and food. I'm going to start small, and make my way into a territory that I love.
Starvation.
This morning I ate a bowl of watered down instant oatmeal. That's all I'm having today. Already I feel hungry, which is good. I don't have a lot of food in my house anyway and I'm staying away from solids. Fruit juices, protein shakes, water and diet sodas only. I might pop into Starbucks, but it's hard to fathom drinking something so sugary and not feeling guilty about the calories.
Something I've noticed:
The more I move the less hungry I feel. So walking and going down to the gym are my only options, plus being at school. I feel happy that I can get back on track, it's time to let go and just be what I am inside.
The more I focus the better I am in life, in everything. I mean all of the work I did to loose that weight helped me focus in school. I have a 3.7 GPA now and I'm on the Dean's list. I'm amazing now thanks to my friend ED.