Poms

So the last two days....no purging.....I feel bad. Well I mostly feel bad because I've taken in 1500 cals each the last two days.

Today was maybe better. My stomach is turning though even though I ate 1/4 of what everyone else had for dinner and maybe 100 cals for breakfast. I think its the breakfast part that's fucking me up. I don't eat that early in the morning...well if 11am can be called early.

Been very productive in the crafting area, working on some blankets to send to Haiti. I don't have a lot of money but I was able to donate 15$ to a really awesome charity. Of course the charity was sponsored by a Harry Potter group. The HP Alliance is great, and they're raising money for an organization that has been down in Haiti helping for decades. It was an awesome Web-athon. Evanna Lynch and Matt Lewis phoned in, it was awesome and Matt offered to follow twitters of those who donated 50$. Got to see live performances as well. Tom Felton is also putting his signed guitar in for the raffle. NO joke. It was touched by TOM FELTON. AHHHHH!!!!!

Happy Happy Joy.

Soooo erm...there's these guys who I think like me. One is here, where I live. The other is in Seattle. The one in Seattle, I've known him for 6 years. He's the sweetest guy ever! Helped me through my first really bad break up. I'm not sure I like him in that way, or if he actually likes me that way too. Despite the crazy emails and txt's. Like 'My perfect day would be (insert my name) cuddles all day'. I hope its just that hes being nice. He doesn't drink, and I love getting drunk....so that would be weird. The other guy is awesome, but not my type at all. I don't want to lead anyone on, so I'm not making overly flirty remarks or comments. I just really hope they're being nice.
Boys disgust me...they literally make my stomach turn. Still getting over you know who.

Oh girls...and boys maybe? I feel so sick. I plan on getting really drunk. Damn the calories.

What what you do if someone you loved all of a sudden began treating you badly? Would you stay in the relationship just because you hoped your love would conquer all? Would you be the first to call it quits or would you wait because you couldn't bear to leave them first? Also would you let someone you loved go on thinking bad things about you and disrespecting you because you were tired of fighting about everything and just wanted them to be happy?
Have you ever been so in love that you feel like you're addicted to that person?

I miss being close to you guys and knowing what you're doing. So I'm off to read blogs, all 48 of you....maybe lol.