Not mine, my friend's. Decided to go snowboarding for the first time in 4 years. Karma is a bitch cuz she's been acting like Miss Better Than Everyone. Ugh...things catch up to you and I really hate that this had happened to her, but it did. She's also the kind of person who never learns a lesson. And she's going to be the most demanding piece of shit on the entire planet. I'm going to hate my life for the next few weeks
So anyway!
Me. Lol. I forgave Dick Bag Jr, a.k.a. Internetz Boy. I needed to let him go and I think now it will be done for me. I feel much better. There were a lot of things I wanted to say to him that I wasn't able to, so I stated a journal to write down my feelings and stuff. But also I would write him letters in it. It helped me get closure and say the things I wanted. Call him the name I wanted to and not get judged for it.
Also working out A LOT more. good for me as I really need more energy. Tons of cardio. Lots of small small vegetarian snacks. Basically the same things I've been doing all a long but with the help of a friend and Whole Foods.
The program I'm working no tells me I need 2,400 cals a day. NO THANK YOU. I get way panicked if I have over 1,800 cals in a day...even in a couple days. So I'm bringing it down and having more liquid meals. This one that I got from Whole Foods is pretty good I'm not hungry at all and you can add water of milk, soy milk for me. Water adds not extra cals of course. Lots of energy bars, watching cals there too, and fiber. Veggies galore.
I've also changed a lot of the products I use. Natural deodorant...no aluminum which can cause Alzheimer's. Its so nice smelling. You still sweat but don't smell. I hate when I use the really potent stuff and I go to shower and its waterproof gunk. Creeps me out, makes me wonder what's happening to my pores. Changed my shampoo and conditioner. They're like 3$ each at WF's. My hair looks and feels sooooo nice! Dr. Bronner's for soap I love the minty freshness of it but there are some other amazing scents. LOL. Don't I sound like a walking infomercial?
Anyway. So working on my image inside out . I feel good and I haven't purged in a while. Restricting on a diet, no one notices...kind of a fun trick.
Hearts and strength my darling. I'll have more juicy tidbits for the next time I'm sure, seeing as Dick Bag Jr just emailed me...ooer.
1 comment:
Oh you make those shampoos and soaps and goodies sound so wonderful! I'm working through the collection I got given for Christmas :/ Always interesting!
I love the sound of the healthy foods and the lack of purging = LOVE! You have me all motivated to go to the organic foods shop and pick up some REAL fruits and vegges instead of the wilted&bruised shite we get at work :p
It's go good to hear you're doing well. Dick Bag can go anally penetrate himself with a cheese grater and a frozen swordfish. You are too awesome for his BS!
*Hugs* Have an awesome day, sending you strength and love and sunny days! <3
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