Didn't shed a tear.

Yesterday I got a reprieve. My best friend V came and we rode around the city with our friend J. They gave me a crazy beverage called Drank(110cals per serv) and it was pretty damn good. Also smoked a little, which was nice.

Those two really care about me, they're like you guys. My extended non-related family. They basically gave me some really tough love last night about my idea to go to NY. I don't want to die...or be pimped out. Was I really stupid for thinking it could work out? With 24$ in my pocket. It seems so dumb now. They were really angry at me, more at my mom though. Supposedly I could have asked the court for a mental evaluation on my mother before she took me to court. that would have been hilarious.

So we're back to the military. I don't have a problem with the idea, I just felt like I had no other options and I was sick of relying on others. I need to prove that I can do life on my own. So I'm going down to the the recruitment office for the navy, supposedly they take fattys. I hope I can get everything squared away before the week is up. I due to be out friday ain't I?

I did get very hungry at about 11 last night but I refused to eat since I had eaten some pad thai earlier. They give you such big portions of that stuff! I ate about half. Also a milky way 270cals.
Got on the scale this morning, and I'm so grateful to actually see a number, the number is my goal for this month. Yay me for loosing 13 lbs!

Now I'm at 190lbs. UGH such a big gross number, but I'm finally loosing weight, which I haven't been able to do for months. I want to be at 150 by christmas. 40lbs? can I do it? Hell yes!

Thank you all so very much for your support and ideas I heart you girls!