Back On The Horse

Try Harder, try harder.

After moping about yesterday, I realized that I wasn't going to let my body win. I'd been letting it do whatever it wanted for the longest time, and I promised myself I would never let it get that bad again.

So I'm ready for the next couple of months. I'm so inspired by the rest of you who have been here, and have taken your bodies closer and closer to perfection. I will follow by example and not give up or cry just because I can't get what I want right away.

I have something to strive for, I can be better than fat people. I will be slim lines and sleek beauty. I will be stark bones and angles that create the only illusion I love. Perfection.

I guess I should update everyone on my...living status. I'm going to join the Army, or the Navy I'm not sure yet, and I need to loose major pounds, but we already knew that. I also have to finish up my community service before I'm able to sign anything.
My friend V's parents were pretty much appalled by all the shit going on in this house and offered me a place to stay. They're kind of rich. But also they were in the military so they're really letting me stay on the basis that I'd be going into a service. Which I don't mind, I just feel really awkward about living with them....but that's all on me. V keeps calling to reassure me that everything will be cool. So I'm not going to NY this friday girls.....I'm leaving here tomorrow. Hopefully to never return.

Thank you all so much again and again, Id have lost my mind many many times without the support and confident words. All of you are my thinspiration so hang in there with me and one day I'll be like you because I have followed behind you.

Y'all Rock My World
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