Some stuff

I want to say thank you to everyone! You guys really keep me going.

So far I've been good with food today. Half a bagel and gatorade. I know, the sugar but I needed a boost.

So I'm looking for a job anywhere really. I live in Northern Virginia if anyone wanted to stalk me. My first plan was to move to NY and get busy stripping or being an escort until I could get a job as a waitress or cooking because I went to school to be a chef, and fuck me if I don't use the skills. But my sister told me she has a friend who has an extra room I can rent, and she's trying to get me a job at the place she works at.
I'm not super excited about the prospect of living in a shelter, but there's really no other way if this all falls through. And I think it will make me grow up a little.

I wonder if that's what I really need. I've always been responsible and hard working. How do I need to grow up.....I should really think about that.

Anyway, I'm out getting rid of all the stuff I cant take with me, which is just about everything. I don't mind, it feels like I'm clearing my head too. I feel proud of myself for not giving up and dissolving into tears. Crying is something I couldn't control, but I'm never going to cry again. Tears don't get you shit.

Anyway I better get back.